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I need friends.
I hate this time thing and new schools and growing up because I'm fucking tired of everything. I don't really think I can take losing another friend just because. Why can't they all figure it out? Why can't they all remember what great times we had? I don't care if P has a girlfriend, I don't care that S was once in-love with me, just like I don't care that I was once in-love with P. I don't care if B loves A and if M is emotionally just as fucked up as I am, I don't care that N is having issues at home, I don't care that I moved away.
I remember how I loved J, because he was my first friend, I remember how it hurt when my parents divorced and I never saw him again.
I remember how N was the only person I knew in the new neighborhood and how grade school was over and now he can't even walk 30 meters to say hi.
I remember how B and M were my very first girlfriends ever and how we grew up and B doesn't know what she wants and how M knows even less.
I remember how I loved P just because he was who he was, but maybe I just loved him for being my friend.
I remember how I loved S, but he just can't find the time for me because he's an adult now.
I remember what a great company we were but then O started to like me too.

I am not good at making new friends.
I am however good at missing old ones.
I miss you guys all, and you don't even seem to notice me.


Jan. 28th, 2010

Imagine; Xabi/Stevie

Rating: none
Disclaimer: close your eyes, and dream. (maybe then)

Stevie imagines

Dec. 20th, 2009

You were my friend. You were my best friend. And I loved you and I feel in love with you.
And you hurt me, and you made me cry, and you made me hope and cry again and you made me give up again and again.
And you hurt me like hell, but you loved me back.
I moved on, or so I thought, and I saw you again and found out that I didn't.
I waited for years for you to love me like I deserve, I gave up so much for you, and I'm not sorry. Because I learned how to love and how to live (with it) and how to...
I don't regret it but back then I thought that I don't deserve you. But I was wrong. I deserve everything that you could give me and so much more. The truth is that you don't deserve me. Because I might be imperfect and I might not be the sharpest or the prettiest pencil in the box, but neither are you.
I hoped that we could be friends again, because I loved being your friend, but we can't.
We can't because even if I am a 100% sure I am over you and that I don't love you any more, it's not true.
We can't be friends, because every time I see you, I love you a little bit more, I hate you a little bit more.
We can't be friends because, every time I look at you I think: "I want to not want him," and it's killing me.
So I have to turn the page, start a new chapter, close the book, rip out the pages, whatever. I have to let you go.

Fuck me, this is so painful and frustrating because I really hoped that you could be my best friend again. But you can't.

I have to move on, fall in love, be happy. Without you. I love you but you make me miserable, and I don't deserve it. I deserve to be happy. And I'm sorry, because I know that someday we both are gonna regret this.

Letters; Kaká/Sheva

Rating: none
Disclaimer: in another world, maybe.

Letters; Kaká/Sheva
you are forgiven.

(i'm not though)


Power; Kaká/Sheva

Rating: none
Disclaimer: not true, not mine, wish they were.

Power; Kaká/Sheva

Games; Íker/Becks

Rating: none
Disclaimer: not true, not mine, wish they were.

Games; Íker/Becks
Behold... My Future
  I will marry martin.  
  After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in hong kong in our fabulous Apartment.  
  We will have 5 kid(s) together.  
  Our family will zoom around in a blue porche.
  I will spend my days as a WAG, and live happily ever after.  
whats your future

Jun. 8th, 2008

Title: Past, Present, Future.
Pairing: Luis Garcia/Xabi Alonso, Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard, Steven Gerrard/Fernando Torres
Rating: nothing
Disclaimer: I'm a real boy! *her nose grows*
A/N: It has almost 2500 words...it's like amazing I could write something as long...*is proud*

Past, Present, Future.

comment PLEASEE
(even if you don't like it please, tell me, so i can do something about it in the future
Title: A moment in time
Pairing(s): Kaka/Sheva
Disclaimer: Such lies Lucius

A moment in time

Title: Love
Pairing(s): Íker Casillas/David Beckham
Disclaimer: Such lies Lucius


Title: Scent
Pairing(s): Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard, Ferando Torres/Steven Gerrard
Disclaimer: Such lies Lucius


Title: Harry Potter
Pairing(s): Daniel Agger/Steve Finnan
Disclaimer: Such lies Lucius

Harry Potter

as I said: Feedback=love ;)
Title: Hurt
Pairing: Cristiano Ronaldo/Wayne Rooney
Rating: nothing
Disclaimer: I live in a castle! And this is true! not :(
A/N: my first and last MANU fic.Just felt like it. Not beta-ed. Ohh and it's a drabble. 100 words exactly.

Why would you want to hurt me?

comments are love :p